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Nightmares

For the last week I've been suffering from a disease called "PESD" which stands for "Post Evangelism Stress Disorder". Every night since I left California, I've woken up scared because there is someone in my bed and I think it's my roommate from the evangelistic series. I got so used to sleeping in my own bed that Shari's body next to mine gives me a jolt of confusion. I'm not exaggerating when I say it's happened every single night since I left. Shari even told me that last night she leaned over to hug me and I got upset and initally told her to get off in my confusion. When Shari gave me a kiss goodbye this morning while I was still in bed (Ah, the good life of living off your wife's paycheck), I started asking her when we were heading back to Michigan and others were leaving California.

Even though I am kind of joking about it, I have a greater understanding about PTSD. My confusion and nightmares are quite silly but it's really annoying and makes sleep kind of stressful. I can't imagine being awoken every night to the sight of bombs and dead friends like many soldiers experience.

The second nightmare is because of good old Michigan. If you look at the picture to the left, what you are seeing is not a bucket of Dippin Dots that I dropped on the deck but instead it's snow. YES, IT'S SNOWING ON OCTOBER 12! I need to get out of this place. Of course, we're moving in December so we'll probably have to move in a Blizzard.
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j said…
Wow. It really did snow!
8:44 PM
Jonathan Thornton said…
It was 82 in Angwin today. But on a more serious note, I feel the same way since I got back. I am not used to being here in Angwin for more than a day at a time. I keep thinking I have to get up early and fight Golden Gate traffic.
10:53 PM
trevan said…
Jon, you're a jerk. You know you're wrong for telling me it was 82 in Angwin.
9:52 AM
Anonymous said…
The stress of your experience is real! Keep that in mind when you see evangelists do weird things or seem to be out of touch. It is very stressful!!
3:02 PM
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